asukaonfire @ 2010-03-30T22: 48:00
I wanted my words today can equal more acts to follow. And that was a total Shot in the oven. From all over the howling I'm stabbing headache (and not only one point) and am otherwise totally finished, and all done.
I wanted to get off these ugly blue walls. But I'm still in Anklam extra posters, postcards and so stuff culled. I also have those extra .. I always forget the correct name .. "Pins" with him. A poster I got in the wall. Then I gave up, as the second poster fell off again. The wall is too hard. I get the "pins" not attached.
After a short break I wanted to just frustration otherwise clean up.
For short explanation: Dad and I live it on his campsite. I'm in the "house" where the reception and the office of Paps a room and a bathroom is directly behind the office. As I said, the walls are ugly blue (if there is a color I hate, it's blue), then here is thus all an old, veranzter carpet. Aw, ornaments carpet. Flowers and said Kramer. But just totally ugly. The furniture that are in here are wild pastiche of the old apartment. A light beige gigantic closet next to a totally old dark brown cabinet. Only times as an example. Then here are packing boxes and a lot of dad stuff is everywhere around here. Most of the cupboards are full, so I can not really do much as pure, therefore are my things that I've dragged out with Anklam, rum everywhere. Oh and not forgetting the box returnable bottles, which swells and dad wanted taken away for some days ...
Well anyway, I'm somehow trying to bring here purely ne fine, but I immediately abandoned when I realized that those damn boxes can go anywhere else and I just can not create a place ... Because
and now we come back to my last entry, I can not drive and so I can not put the boxes in our garage (the garage is about 1 km away from here).
It just all so ugly. And just in Anklam. I'm nowhere a place for me, a place that I find beautiful. I miss my orange pink walls. I've been living on a 3 / 4 years without its own proper realm for my taste, and slowly but surely it affect me really.
ah naja and so on and so forth, blah blah: / Today was a really shitty day when you've once again feels wonderful lies ignored.
Hopefully it works now with Hamburg last week. This time I just driving the bus to the train station. Then I have to rely at least not to others (except the bus driver who will come too late as always)
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Bathroom Grab Handles
findings
me now so much about me has itself become clear. As a young teenager
I was very, very independent, which was because I just have largely lived alone. I was often praised or admired. I was also done himself proud when I had to suffer often lower.
have me now overtaken all other people. They have grown out of a matter of course and I'm stopped. All others have made the driver's license and I still need someone to drive me. I put up a constant with my brother. If I'm on complaints, I do not do anything. I allow myself to cook and do the shopping for me. I make it not even keep my room and the bathroom clean. Everywhere was chaos and I war is not high and the ass gammel all the time on the PC before me out. I justify this by saying that I, after all, "free" have. But not so freely have meant to each catapult again to the stone age, right?
It annoys me that I constantly have to rely on anyone. Because I'm not independent enough to alone to cope. Because I have no driver's license, I am constantly subject to any other.
many who I know are now so far, that they can finance life on their own. I am depending on the student loans office, my child benefit and dad. I keep pumping him, because I once again the strands have killed. And I'm not, although I've already purchased, a guilty conscience. It makes me tame, I can not stand on my own legs.
It's probably really get up at the time. A new month begins. I was trying, it works better this time. And maybe this time what can I put on my license back.
Oh yes: I have not even written in a while: I'm planning to live the whole of April vegeatarisch because I want to see even if what is for me.
me now so much about me has itself become clear. As a young teenager
I was very, very independent, which was because I just have largely lived alone. I was often praised or admired. I was also done himself proud when I had to suffer often lower.
have me now overtaken all other people. They have grown out of a matter of course and I'm stopped. All others have made the driver's license and I still need someone to drive me. I put up a constant with my brother. If I'm on complaints, I do not do anything. I allow myself to cook and do the shopping for me. I make it not even keep my room and the bathroom clean. Everywhere was chaos and I war is not high and the ass gammel all the time on the PC before me out. I justify this by saying that I, after all, "free" have. But not so freely have meant to each catapult again to the stone age, right?
It annoys me that I constantly have to rely on anyone. Because I'm not independent enough to alone to cope. Because I have no driver's license, I am constantly subject to any other.
many who I know are now so far, that they can finance life on their own. I am depending on the student loans office, my child benefit and dad. I keep pumping him, because I once again the strands have killed. And I'm not, although I've already purchased, a guilty conscience. It makes me tame, I can not stand on my own legs.
It's probably really get up at the time. A new month begins. I was trying, it works better this time. And maybe this time what can I put on my license back.
Oh yes: I have not even written in a while: I'm planning to live the whole of April vegeatarisch because I want to see even if what is for me.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Death From Ovarian Cancer What To Expect
I have a drinking problem until I got a money problem.
I still have almost 80 € auf'm account and get next week or € 184 child benefit.
But ... I still need € 320 tuition fees pay ;_;'''
Oh no, I hate myself and my consumerism ...
And I do not know how I book the return trip to the 30Seconds to Mars will pay for concert in Berlin on Wednesday; _; I can not let Tina hang and say that I can not drive ... And to LBM but I would actually also like ...
Holy shit> _ \u0026lt;
And yes, I'm to blame> _
I still have almost 80 € auf'm account and get next week or € 184 child benefit.
But ... I still need € 320 tuition fees pay ;_;'''
Oh no, I hate myself and my consumerism ...
And I do not know how I book the return trip to the 30Seconds to Mars will pay for concert in Berlin on Wednesday; _; I can not let Tina hang and say that I can not drive ... And to LBM but I would actually also like ...
Holy shit> _ \u0026lt;
And yes, I'm to blame> _
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Cellular Respiration Lab Answers Ap
How was that even with the savings? ...
... I was looking at Takko ...
clarinet has made me feel like it, what to buy again. And I took to ne new pants, because now my last pants under the zipper is torn at the seam ... And since I can not sew I have to wait for Mario next week. I have a lot of pants. Just no more, I also like: 'D
Well ... Anyway ... that was a big mistake ...
I say at the end how much I've spent; _;
here first pictures
first Where I honestly do not know how to do that with xD '.. At each end of the elastic band as the collar. The sleeves are 3 / 4 and I think that it bears co Carmen standard. So strapless.
second also 3/4Ärmel and Joah, the rest you can see xD And yes, it suits me even though I kind of stuff because of my small breasts do not fit in most cases.
third Joah, a sweater Since Yesterday (red2) Tomorrow we want to wear matching outfits in both the Zebra Thong (red) * giggle * \u0026lt;3
8th black legwarmers. FINALLY again xD My old who did not survive last winter. States: one, I've lost, whatever is the XDDD Anyway, he is lost. And they were always taken very much.
9th Zebra socks, yay ° _ °
10th Rautenmusteeeer \u0026lt;3 \u0026lt;3 \u0026lt;3 But I will wear the socks eh non often I think .. because there is no knee socks xD 11th A ring ° _ ° '
12th A hair band with peak yay: 3
13th In each case, the second pair in the pack. Leosocken \u0026lt;3
14. Diamonds again, yay!
And the last top ... I had to shcon and was too lazy to take off again and it really was the whole plan without my face, but then was I not so ugly, so .. tadaa xD Again, a simple top with lace Months radical diet, then, because I can afford to eat nothing more XDD '
now are certainly some people who want to beat me like Paps with dog eyes * * look at. _.'
So much money and then also just in Takko XD Speaking of which, I am VIP, lol.
... I was looking at Takko ...
clarinet has made me feel like it, what to buy again. And I took to ne new pants, because now my last pants under the zipper is torn at the seam ... And since I can not sew I have to wait for Mario next week. I have a lot of pants. Just no more, I also like: 'D
Well ... Anyway ... that was a big mistake ...
I say at the end how much I've spent; _;
here first pictures
first Where I honestly do not know how to do that with xD '.. At each end of the elastic band as the collar. The sleeves are 3 / 4 and I think that it bears co Carmen standard. So strapless.
second also 3/4Ärmel and Joah, the rest you can see xD And yes, it suits me even though I kind of stuff because of my small breasts do not fit in most cases.
third Joah, a sweater Since Yesterday (red2) Tomorrow we want to wear matching outfits in both the Zebra Thong (red) * giggle * \u0026lt;3
8th black legwarmers. FINALLY again xD My old who did not survive last winter. States: one, I've lost, whatever is the XDDD Anyway, he is lost. And they were always taken very much.
9th Zebra socks, yay ° _ °
10th Rautenmusteeeer \u0026lt;3 \u0026lt;3 \u0026lt;3 But I will wear the socks eh non often I think .. because there is no knee socks xD 11th A ring ° _ ° '
12th A hair band with peak yay: 3 13th In each case, the second pair in the pack. Leosocken \u0026lt;3
14. Diamonds again, yay!
And the last top ... I had to shcon and was too lazy to take off again and it really was the whole plan without my face, but then was I not so ugly, so .. tadaa xD Again, a simple top with lace Months radical diet, then, because I can afford to eat nothing more XDD '
now are certainly some people who want to beat me like Paps with dog eyes * * look at. _.'
So much money and then also just in Takko XD Speaking of which, I am VIP, lol.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Neon Dresses For Homecoming
MEME TIME!
stole my Habs on Mexx. Steal it and you still xD
AS ...
... you've got one of your scars?
I've got a pretty long cheer left thigh. I have my self-inflicted with a knife. I was young xD And Others had terrible heartache. But it was grade Families are not so good and I did not tell me himself. Some may condemn me now maybe, but I am not ashamed of it, I did that. It's like a tattoo. If you look at it, you think back to the time and draws his own conclusions. For me, the scar is in part a warning. I know what I've been through, I've almost forgotten the pain, the scar shows me but it was bad. And I can say this is the scar to me and she just tells a story, like many other scars. And just like tattoos. And no, I do not crack for years and it will not do more;) I've found other ways (ALKOHOOOL XDD Nah, kidding)
... you've celebrated your last birthday?
in Anklam. 2Leute out of school have come long. We bought a lot of food, little bit drunk and hotel played XD
... do you feel now? excited to offer degree 2RiP tickets on Ebay XD (crap, do not> get.>)
... was your last night?
er can remember non-tuned, slept, haha ...
have ... you get the shirt you're wearing what? I wear baggy
NEN sweatshirt, black and pink striped and very thin white stripes xD is the total toll \u0026lt;3 I'm carrying really no horizontal stripes, but in the sweater that's cool because he really totally fluttered and perfect for the home is * _ *
Oh and to get back to the question XD dad gave me the sweater donated, as we (Gaub I) in Oberwiesenthal the NKD were and after gloves were looking for me:)
... much money did you last month spent?
er .. 200 I think. Well well, if you include rent and school fees and cell phone bill, then the 800 €
... old you want to be when you get married?
IF I get married, then .. er, well, all depends on it, right? Is not really care. But it would be nice to find even in the 20's range and marry the love xD
old ... you're at your next birthday?
22nd __. ... is the name of your mother?
Mrs. M.
XDDD * cough * no, Renate.
WHAT ...
have ... you do last weekend?
gegammelt ° _ ° 'DS gambled and signed
... is the most important thing in your life?
oo love and trust. And money XD And to be able to draw. So not in the sense of a good draw, but use within the meaning of my right hand to and forever.
... can you feel better if you do not like doing well?
music and watching TV oo Ehrlich. If I go bad, I bury myself until the pain, listen to music and watch TV then that is distracting and takes me to other thoughts. Or play n game.
... the most important thing is what you care for someone else?
personality. Charisma. Well look, and Ehrlich oO. I could not be with ner total fat, pimply face together o, o So I love my technology. When my friends is the matter with which I will not even have sex ... XD
you hear just for music?
I just watch the thing on Oslo Pro7, because I am a Christian Durstewitz Fan Songs but also great. And, thus, a la Poprocks Paramore sometimes fun xD
... you worried?
much. Dave. Death. What I probably do six months in nem o o. ..
... have you had for breakfast?
er. I did not have breakfast because I am a 13 clock not eat breakfast for lunch xD But I have 2 chicken steaks and NEN small cucumber salad eaten \u0026lt;3
Have you ever ... ... someone had
loved the a / e etc?
not once XD ... get your heart broken?
not only once xD
... leave your country?
I was once in Barcelona on a school trip in Denmark and 2004th And at Disneyland when I was 7 XD
... something unheard done stupid?
several times XD '
... had sex on the beach?
Yes. in a dream ... oo XD
gedated someone younger than yourself?
uff .. er .. So, in principle, "date" I do not XD
... read a whole book in one day?
may indeed one of the Twilight series.
WHO ...
... was the last person you saw? The
I also know or something random? Oo
Then someone threw in the car, drove past me. And so'n punk who has stared at me so funny.
People I know: Mario on Thursday
was ... the last person you've written?
Shi, with the degree of MSN chat I \u0026lt;3
was ... the last person with whom you have in place?
lol Eh .. Mario xD
was ... the last person you called?
Maxi \u0026lt;3 on Sunday. I drive this weekend probably to her and cellos:) Abe ROnly if they plan anything. You want me to call again
... made you last hug?
er ... I think Mario oo
... was the last person you wrote to?
Quen in Msn
... was the last person of you "I love you" you say?
.... I think that my ex would have been. However, the two shcon 1/2Jahre ago xD .....
WO ...
your lives ... s best friend? Did I
non o.o
... you last go?
Lidl to buy drink. Like every day XD
... you last suspended?
here just on the couch
have ... you sleep last night?
In my bed I sleep on newest oo Since Mario's side, because as the heating is XD
DOING ...
... you just love someone? Yes
oo
... you think that someone loves you?
No, I do not think someone is in love with me Oo, unfortunately x'D
... you sometimes wish to be someone else?
yes. But actually, I find myself pretty great XD I would just like someone else to have some other things (right, solid friends, love, ne tollere training ne other city, more beautiful body .. xD ....), but I am with my personality now at the point where I like and be good. This does not mean I'm perfect or something. I still have many things to work on myself, but at least I can say I'm satisfied. Especially concerning my settings. ... you know the muffin man?
no.
... you are afraid of the future?
Not really. For that matter, I'm mostly pretty carefree. There will always be a way and I'll make my way also.
I'm just afraid of ending up alone x'D
WHY ...
... are you friends with your best friends?
oo I just refer to Mario. Because we both ne big mouth have to say and if that does not suit us. In addition, we are on the same level Churchill XD We get content and I can laugh with him, but I also throw up with him, what if I stink.
... you have MySpace?
start because of the strikes. Yes, still doing it, but now there is Twitter great xD
... your parents gave you your name?
My mother gave me the name. When did the old 3 series Charlie's Angels, it was the one, the short black hair and Sabrina said. My mother particularly liked the well or something.
IF ...
... you could have one super power, what would this?
FEUEEEEER XD Nah, prefer to fly or something ... Or turn back time * _ * Or mind reading XDDD
... you could back in time to change something, would you do it?
Yes.
... you are stranded on an island would bring a thing could, what would it be?
My laptop;; I have my music, Internet and if necessary even games xD Hey, I can draw and also .. my GT is finally on the laptop, so it is one of them XD
WOULD YOU EVER ...
... again (no matter whom) meet your / your ex if he / she ask?
so I have often thought about it. But I do not think more. I would always remember what failed in the relationship and had too much fear that it breaks down again for the same reasons. Also, I have no feelings for the people even more o, o
ONE LAST QUESTION:
Are you satisfied with your current life?
I'm satisfied with what I have. More is always of course.
But I've learned to appreciate more what and where I am and my perspective on things is generally become more positive. What it also brings to blow only tribulation. I'm good at making the best of everything. Nu
stole my Habs on Mexx. Steal it and you still xD
AS ...
... you've got one of your scars? I've got a pretty long cheer left thigh. I have my self-inflicted with a knife. I was young xD And Others had terrible heartache. But it was grade Families are not so good and I did not tell me himself. Some may condemn me now maybe, but I am not ashamed of it, I did that. It's like a tattoo. If you look at it, you think back to the time and draws his own conclusions. For me, the scar is in part a warning. I know what I've been through, I've almost forgotten the pain, the scar shows me but it was bad. And I can say this is the scar to me and she just tells a story, like many other scars. And just like tattoos. And no, I do not crack for years and it will not do more;) I've found other ways (ALKOHOOOL XDD Nah, kidding)
... you've celebrated your last birthday?
in Anklam. 2Leute out of school have come long. We bought a lot of food, little bit drunk and hotel played XD
... do you feel now? excited to offer degree 2RiP tickets on Ebay XD (crap, do not> get.>) ... was your last night?
er can remember non-tuned, slept, haha ...
have ... you get the shirt you're wearing what? I wear baggy
NEN sweatshirt, black and pink striped and very thin white stripes xD is the total toll \u0026lt;3 I'm carrying really no horizontal stripes, but in the sweater that's cool because he really totally fluttered and perfect for the home is * _ *
Oh and to get back to the question XD dad gave me the sweater donated, as we (Gaub I) in Oberwiesenthal the NKD were and after gloves were looking for me:)
... much money did you last month spent?
er .. 200 I think. Well well, if you include rent and school fees and cell phone bill, then the 800 €
... old you want to be when you get married?
IF I get married, then .. er, well, all depends on it, right? Is not really care. But it would be nice to find even in the 20's range and marry the love xD
old ... you're at your next birthday?
22nd __. ... is the name of your mother?
Mrs. M.
XDDD * cough * no, Renate.
WHAT ...
have ... you do last weekend?
gegammelt ° _ ° 'DS gambled and signed
... is the most important thing in your life?
oo love and trust. And money XD And to be able to draw. So not in the sense of a good draw, but use within the meaning of my right hand to and forever.
... can you feel better if you do not like doing well?
music and watching TV oo Ehrlich. If I go bad, I bury myself until the pain, listen to music and watch TV then that is distracting and takes me to other thoughts. Or play n game.
... the most important thing is what you care for someone else?
personality. Charisma. Well look, and Ehrlich oO. I could not be with ner total fat, pimply face together o, o So I love my technology. When my friends is the matter with which I will not even have sex ... XD
you hear just for music?
I just watch the thing on Oslo Pro7, because I am a Christian Durstewitz Fan Songs but also great. And, thus, a la Poprocks Paramore sometimes fun xD
... you worried?
much. Dave. Death. What I probably do six months in nem o o. ..
... have you had for breakfast?
er. I did not have breakfast because I am a 13 clock not eat breakfast for lunch xD But I have 2 chicken steaks and NEN small cucumber salad eaten \u0026lt;3
Have you ever ... ... someone had
loved the a / e etc?
not once XD ... get your heart broken?
not only once xD
... leave your country?
I was once in Barcelona on a school trip in Denmark and 2004th And at Disneyland when I was 7 XD
... something unheard done stupid?
several times XD '
... had sex on the beach?
Yes. in a dream ... oo XD
gedated someone younger than yourself?
uff .. er .. So, in principle, "date" I do not XD
... read a whole book in one day?
may indeed one of the Twilight series.
WHO ...
... was the last person you saw? The
I also know or something random? Oo
Then someone threw in the car, drove past me. And so'n punk who has stared at me so funny.
People I know: Mario on Thursday
was ... the last person you've written?
Shi, with the degree of MSN chat I \u0026lt;3
was ... the last person with whom you have in place?
lol Eh .. Mario xD
was ... the last person you called?
Maxi \u0026lt;3 on Sunday. I drive this weekend probably to her and cellos:) Abe ROnly if they plan anything. You want me to call again
... made you last hug?
er ... I think Mario oo
... was the last person you wrote to?
Quen in Msn
... was the last person of you "I love you" you say?
.... I think that my ex would have been. However, the two shcon 1/2Jahre ago xD .....
WO ...
your lives ... s best friend? Did I
non o.o
... you last go?
Lidl to buy drink. Like every day XD
... you last suspended?
here just on the couch
have ... you sleep last night?
In my bed I sleep on newest oo Since Mario's side, because as the heating is XD
DOING ...
... you just love someone? Yes
oo
... you think that someone loves you?
No, I do not think someone is in love with me Oo, unfortunately x'D
... you sometimes wish to be someone else?
yes. But actually, I find myself pretty great XD I would just like someone else to have some other things (right, solid friends, love, ne tollere training ne other city, more beautiful body .. xD ....), but I am with my personality now at the point where I like and be good. This does not mean I'm perfect or something. I still have many things to work on myself, but at least I can say I'm satisfied. Especially concerning my settings. ... you know the muffin man?
no.
... you are afraid of the future?
Not really. For that matter, I'm mostly pretty carefree. There will always be a way and I'll make my way also.
I'm just afraid of ending up alone x'D
WHY ...
... are you friends with your best friends?
oo I just refer to Mario. Because we both ne big mouth have to say and if that does not suit us. In addition, we are on the same level Churchill XD We get content and I can laugh with him, but I also throw up with him, what if I stink.
... you have MySpace?
start because of the strikes. Yes, still doing it, but now there is Twitter great xD
... your parents gave you your name?
My mother gave me the name. When did the old 3 series Charlie's Angels, it was the one, the short black hair and Sabrina said. My mother particularly liked the well or something.
IF ...
... you could have one super power, what would this?
FEUEEEEER XD Nah, prefer to fly or something ... Or turn back time * _ * Or mind reading XDDD
... you could back in time to change something, would you do it?
Yes.
... you are stranded on an island would bring a thing could, what would it be?
My laptop;; I have my music, Internet and if necessary even games xD Hey, I can draw and also .. my GT is finally on the laptop, so it is one of them XD
WOULD YOU EVER ...
... again (no matter whom) meet your / your ex if he / she ask?
so I have often thought about it. But I do not think more. I would always remember what failed in the relationship and had too much fear that it breaks down again for the same reasons. Also, I have no feelings for the people even more o, o
ONE LAST QUESTION:
Are you satisfied with your current life?
I'm satisfied with what I have. More is always of course.
But I've learned to appreciate more what and where I am and my perspective on things is generally become more positive. What it also brings to blow only tribulation. I'm good at making the best of everything. Nu
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