And then there was ...
Sun and the actual entry XDD
Alsooo ~
Eli was so until last week Friday an us (ie 5 days). Friday they gave me a lift. She had to Schleswig yes, what is right in Schleswig Holstein, XD, and I wanted to go to Hamburg to my brother and Ira. Since it was too stressful in HH purely down to me Eli has thrown in Lübeck.
btw Eli. That was kind of funny. I had somehow once again the feeling that Eli really likes me only because it with me first can blaspheme (which I think is great indeed. Lästerchwester have to re ne.) and 2 Because they can make themselves more beautiful fun of me. This is the week I noticed quite often. She has so often laughed with me about Mario. And I'm now really not the type who can not laugh at himself. is taken so much shit I do, because if it were funny when I could not laugh at me XD But I begin to at some point too much, then when almost everything that I do say, do in the dirt. In part, it seemed to me as if Mario and Eli would be laughing together as Eli and me. And what I went totally blind auf'n. On the first evening, she told that she has cried in the car when she was driving because its not as long Carsten can see. Eh? Somewhere that is so sweet, but ... eh? I mean ... eh? which were only 5 days! And yes wra really nothing spontaneous. The shcon they knew but weeks. Ok, that sounds like a pretty callous. I understand that it's easy to get used to someone when you live with him and sees him every day and then suddenly five days not at all, but she has a week so often made comments that she misses and Carsten HOW MUCH YOU BUT HAPPY TO BE HOME. Super. Once it was even "only 2 days!"
Eh, lol. No idea, but I am sick like that. Why do they then come forth at all? I mean, they should still look forward to have with me and all the other fun and that they had. But if it speaks only of them, they want to go home and she misses her cat and Carsten ... I do not know ... know you know what I mean D: I'm really hard given that they feel comfortable here.
For me, these 5 days went by in a flash. And somehow we both probably out of the air, I have the feeling. Was somehow clear. Eli and I had not lived together in boarding school, we would never have become such friends. And it shows just now.
I think I'll wait until they contact me again.
What was also nice btw: She and Stefan Carsten (not her Carsten, but the other, who lived with us in the boarding complicated XD) invited to Easter itself. But not me. She told that she is in March or April for the Jennifer Lopez concert in Kiel. It has not asked if I would come. When I was in November with her, we wanted really to JR, but have received no tickets and were about to catch up just then. And now something. Told me proudly that she goes there with friends ...
not know, I feel somehow ripped before. Well. Eli and I are in different leagues just yet. She is super cool and I'm just the happy medium. As always.
.. Ok, that was then, not what I wanted to report. lol.
So
HAMBURG XD It was like always. I was allowed to employ the most part alone. My birthday gift was the way so ne card for the DS. For Games and so ... you already know>.> \u0026lt;.\u0026lt;... In any case n great gift:) Even if I somehow ran out of 2 gifts. Because it was so early that he wants vershcicken my Christmas with my birthday gift ... Eh, yes. is just a gift x'D But anyway, I will not complain. Now I'm definitely a lot of great games. Currently I have been playing Pokemon Pearl.
And so we come even to what have I done all the time with Ira and Chris: watching television, gambling DS and play with Yami. Yes, very much more was not there. No long conversations. no enterprise.
We have I think 2 movies watched. Mostly I sat alone in the living room. They were in the bedroom and have gambled in the PC or internet surfing. I think the longest continuous conversation was ... 2min long, lol.
has been really hard so he is not as accessible. I'm still n day stay longer because I like Yami case and because I regularly got food, I did not do it yourself XD And because I really think like am with my brother: / he's my brother and although he is as the ass last acts, he is still my brother. Maybe I should just stop having expectations. Today I was pretty grumpy all the time because I did not feel like more going to pretend that everything would be great. I just do not understand what's so hard to know what to do with his sister. And if it just me with him Wohnzimemr had stayed. I did not let Eli simply hinvegitieren alone in front of him. We were imemr together and although we have only watched TV, we had fun with it. If I'm NEN guest to visit, I try to entertain him and let him hingammeln but not in nem space in front of him. Sure, you have to be sometimes an hour for himself, but not 2 / 3 of the day. This time Ira has also been no Müe. In recent times it has always tried to talk with me. This time it was so very nciht the case. Ok, she asked me if I'm at Deviantart and that's it. The two were talking constantly. With it. While I was sitting next to it. You have not even tried to talk to me included. You have spoken so quietly and Nuschlig that had I not felt to participate in at all tuned ....
Hachja .. It could all be as good .... Are my expectations of other people, which I assume they can stand me, somehow too high? That has to be so ...
morning dad gets me up, Thursday and Friday we make final errands, we go to my FIRST EVER WINTER HOLIDAY to Oberwiesenthal with dad \u0026lt;3 .. Where I get to go snowboarding .... XD And alas .... I do not take off at least 2kg o_O
course I take with me the laptop and hope that I make regular updates, I had thus going about what makes the snow so XD
Somehow .. my life is really quite wrong-headed: / I am currently very unhappy with me again, with the people around me ... with every stop.
And it's freezing cold here.
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